What is wrong with me?

Why the fuck can't I forget? Why won't you just fade from my mind? I don't deserve to be here, feeling this. You have wrought more damage on my life than anyone before. I hate you for what you've done to me, and yet I hate the fact that I don't really hate you at all... You don't give a shit, or you'd try to make it right. So why can't I let you go?