What's it all for?

There's a million thoughts running through my head at the moment, and I don't dare spill a single one. Life is funny; when I was put to the test, I made the decision to be a 'good person'. Now I'm just filled with regret for not making the 'bad' choices. There's a good reason I was a certain way before. It was to prevent shit like this happening to me. And it worked. Ah well, such is life.