Tuesday, October 22, 2013

What is wrong with me?

Why the fuck can't I forget? Why won't you just fade from my mind? I don't deserve to be here, feeling this. You have wrought more damage on my life than anyone before. I hate you for what you've done to me, and yet I hate the fact that I don't really hate you at all... You don't give a shit, or you'd try to make it right. So why can't I let you go?

Friday, October 18, 2013

I burnt your shit

But somehow I feel no better, no more at peace. If only we'd never met...

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Wake the fuck up

You need to climb down off that fuckin' high horse of yours. Firstly, I can admit I made mistakes too. I'm not denying that shit. However, I didn't pull ANY of the low, snake-like shit that you did. That's on you. Justify it any way you want, but in the end, you acted like a fuckin' pig, and you lost all respect I had for you.

Now, I may be Mr. Compliments when I'm a nice guy, but without the blinders, I can take an honest look and say you were right; I really was way too fucking good for you.

What's it all for?

There's a million thoughts running through my head at the moment, and I don't dare spill a single one. Life is funny; when I was put to the test, I made the decision to be a 'good person'. Now I'm just filled with regret for not making the 'bad' choices. There's a good reason I was a certain way before. It was to prevent shit like this happening to me. And it worked. Ah well, such is life.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

On the topic of Cinema

I like to think of myself as someone who is quite well versed in the area of cinema. I've seen countless movies. I've also seen many "Top 10 Movies" lists, and I've always thought they were filled with 90% rubbish. Saying a movie is in the "Top 10" basically says these are movies that, if trapped on a deserted island, you'd be happy to watch for the rest of your life. Therefore, movies such as "Legally Blonde" are automatically disqualified, because mouth-breathers stupid enough to enjoy said movie and similarly ridiculous movies wouldn't have the intelligence to survive on a deserted island. Well, unfortunately, I don't have a "Top 10" list...I have a "Top 20" because leaving out any of them would be a crime. So, without further ado, here's my list in no particular order:

Pulp Fiction
2001: A Space Odyssey
One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest
Kill Bill: Volume 1
Kill Bill: Volume 2
Glengarry Glen Ross
The Shawshank Redemption
The Godfather
The Godfather: Part 2
No Country for Old Men
Raging Bull
Close Encounters of the Third Kind
E.T. The Extra-Terrestrial
A Clockwork Orange
The Shining
Terminator 2: Judgment Day
Taxi Driver

Note: There are still more films I'd love to add to this list, but sadly there isn't room, and I think a "Top 30" would just be ridiculous.

Feel free to comment on this one, let me know what you think I've missed. Only intelligent responses will be accepted, hence if you post "Avatar" you will be ridiculed to no end - while it was a triumph of technology, it was by no means a great movie.

On the topic of Existence

The age old philosophical question: why are we here?

Well, that's easy, I've got the answer to that one. To breed. That's it. There is no greater purpose. Our function, our only real function, personal philosophies aside, is to perpetuate our species, just like every other animal on this planet. I've had enough of hearing shit about the meaning of life, there is no meaning, and the only reason we exist is because our parents felt that "need" to have children - thus perpetuating the species. Sure, most people "assign" a meaning to life based on their own beliefs, experiences, and also, let's face it, their intelligence level. People belonging to the lower IQ or fearful group tend to believe in a deity, and so for them the meaning of life is to appease said deity in order to enter their imagined blissful afterlife and live for eternity. Those who are a little more intelligent or just don't give a fuck tend to be atheists. I belong to the latter group. This group to a degree understands that there is no higher meaning or purpose, we just exist for the sake of breeding and furthering our species along. It's not a very comforting notion to many people, I know. For some reason, the idea that there's nothing after we die and our whole life has meant nothing is quite discomforting to people - that's why they invented religion. It makes them feel like they're working towards something, it gives meaning and purpose to their lives. Those who are atheists tend to treasure life more than believers though, because we see that this is it, we get one shot at this life business and then it's over. It makes the experience all the more special. Of course, it's fascinating that we as human beings actually NEED to assign meanings to our lives. I've always wondered why that is. Perhaps because we have satisfied all the basic needs of life, the things most animals must struggle to come up with every day - food, shelter, a mate - and now we're bored, so we think, we ponder. Well, some of us anyway. The majority just coast through life like zombies, medicating themselves with religion and television programmes like a heroin junkie would with a $50 rock, spoon, cotton and needle.